Woke up at 8am , washed up and on-ed lappy . Facebook-ed as usual . Watched "Zong ji san guo" till episode 5 . A recommandable drama . [: Plurk and msn-ed for the rest of the day . Totally moodless . Gotta chiong my Electrical Technology tutorial later at night . Anyway , thanks to Wilson , Mandy and Yingxue for cheering me up . I hope i'll be alright . I want to cry so much right now . So many things are going through my mind . )':

Everything had ended . Disappointed at how you replied to my messages . Whenever i try to talk up something serious , you'll reply me with "dots" , or saying you don't know . You said you haven't say you'll leave me , and you don't have the intention to yet . Doesn't that mean you will in the later days ? You said you're trying not to let it happen , which means there's a possibly that you will . And from your replies , you're throwing everything back at me , as if asking me to decide for you . I know my parents are giving us a hard time , not letting me go out to meet you at all . So much restrictions , i know you're upset too . But since , you can't understand and accept me like this , it's better that we end it . I'm sorry , 7th .

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XiaoXing : Alrights , i will . Thanks Candyheart . [:
♥ } Wenqi : Sister ! miss you too . :D
MANDY : Now it's different . Thanks for being there sweetlover . <3
♥} ATXL, Xinling : Good then , takecare yeah . [:

Happy 2nd monthsary Baby ! <3
& Happy Birthday Weiquan kor ! [:

Woke up at 8am today . Went swimming with Mother for about an hour . Facebook-ed and plurk-ed after that . Around 11plus , left the house for Changi Airport . Ate lunch there and shopped around while waiting for Father and Brother's plane to land . Bought some cute but weird looking accessories for my cousins back in Indonesia . Planned to ask Mother to help me pass them over when she goes back . [: Cabbed back home after Father and Brother arrived . They're guys yet they shop as much as girls do . Laughs . Brother bought me a red Converse shoes . Yay [:

Watched Kateikyoushi Hitman Reborn and Bleach after reaching home . Then , msn-ed and facebook-ed . Baby's having competition again today . Goodluck and jiayou Baby . Sorry that i couldn't be there with you , yet again . It's our 2nd anniversary , yet we can't get to meet out . I'm so deeply sorry my dear . D: Just hope i get freed real soon . I love you Baby . Many depressing stuff is taking over me these few days . I only need you to tolerate and be there for me . You should know our relationship is strong and i'll never let go . It's been so long since a guy has been there to listen to my troubles , willing to go it through with me and continue loving me strongly . I need you baby :'(

Two different people from different places got together .
As times passes , the two people fall in love .
Things hadn't been going too well for them .
Obstacles after obstacles , hardshp after hardship .
Despite quarrels and sadness coming again and again ,
these two people had one thing common inside them .
That is the strong bond and deep love that they shared .
Perhaps , God's testing them whether they're fit to be one .
To see how they two overcome all these together and still stay strong .
Being together , isn't about the time they've spent .
But rather , the the lesson learnt and the strong will they shared .
Which eventually , will let them be together forever .

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wl bestie : You dare to roar me then go ahead . [:
MANDY : Thanks sweetlover , i'm better now [:
Passerby : Thanks for your concern . I'll do what i think is right .

Sorry for late posting . Have been thinking about loads of stuff these days . Baby went for sailing on Wednesday . Learnt something shocking that day . Wasn't only lost for words , but i don't know what to do . All i can think of is , wait for Baby to return from his sailing and talk with him . My mind is in a whirl and my heart is in a twirl . I don't know who to believe and what to believe . In the end , i chose to wait and wait for him to answer it for himself . I doubt i'll be asking him , i'll just wait till he tells me the truth himself .

Wednesday , had Engineering Mathematics Lecture plus Tutorial . Me , Weiquan , Hanafi , Nirija , Sisi , Qianru and Mengyi left class 15 minutes earlier to have our lunch before going BMTC ( Basic Millitary Training Centre ) at Pulau Tekong . Ate some light food at FoodCourt 4 , then proceed to Convention Centre to wait for our Bus . The bus trip took about an hour to reach the ferry port . Took the fast-craft over to BMTC . We're given red bands to represent which group we're in .

Went for video-viewing cum powerpoint presentation at BMTC's auditorium . Then , we're splitted into groups accodring to our coloured bands to explore the place . Went to the "Obstacle ground" first . Saw a demonstration by one NS man . Expected to see more , but they only showed us 4 out of the 11 obstacles . Seems easy , laughs . The man was literally "flying" easily across every obstacle . Next stop was the "Rations corner" where we were given a chance to try what kind of food the NS men were given . Some tasted real nice , of course some tasted abit *Ewww* . Afterwards , went to view the bunks , the place where the NS men sleep . There was even a place for them to play pool , karaoke and play board games . Cool ttm . [:

Our last station was the hall . All of the students who went , were gathered at their hall . Had this activity of which we're splittled into groups of 10 . And , out of the 10 people , we've to select one of them for *make-up* . Laughs . I don't know what's that green thing called , in which the NS men put on their faces . Yeah , we've to put that on the person's face and then he/she have to stand in front of everyone and strike a pose . Weiquan was the *Chosen one* . Supposedly was Hanafi , but he backed out . LOL . Then , sisi , Nirija and Hanafi started their *make-up*-ing . was so hilarious , i couldn't stop laughing . Furthermore , he'd to wear the NS uniform and go upstage . Weiquan didn't win , but overall it was fun . [: Took the fast-craft back to the port and bus-ed back to SP . Trained back home and reached around 7pm .

Thursday , had Engineering Materials lecture , followed by Thermofluids practical and then Electrical technology lecture . Nothing much that day . Was filled with Sisi's OMG-ing throughout the day . LOL . She's been like "OMG , my heart's so going to pop out ! He's so cute ! OMG ! OMG ~ !" kinda stuffs . Dragged by her to the toilet to feel her pulse , lmao ~ Trained home with clique . Facebook-ed and msn-ed . Went audi for awhile . Moodless throughout the day . :'(

Friday , school-ed from 8am-12noon . Had Creative Reasoning Skills tutorial and Computer programming practical . Went to Boon Lay to meet up with Mother after school . Ate and shopped there till 3plus . Stayed home for the rest of the day . Watching movies through Funshion . Waited for Baby to come back from his sailing . Finally Baby messaged me around 8plus . He said he'd been vomitting throughout the sail due to Sea condition . :'( ! Was dragged to bed by Mother at 10pm , it's like oh-so-early . D: But i've got no choice , so couldn't call Baby .

Messaged him about what i'd thought over these days . Baby once said , "I've a girlfriend , but it feels like not having one..." This sentence have been disturbing me ever since it came out from his message . So , i went to message him saying "If you can't understand and accept a girlfriend like me , then find someone else who can always be there for you , since i can't ." Baby replied , "I will just wait . As long as you love me ." [: . Though there're still somethings that i've my doubts over with , i'll just leave it there as it is . [:

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fang : Nuer . <3
fang : Nuer , takecare toos :D
erzi : Thanks Yj . :3
MANDY : Hope so bah , [:
gladys : Trying to , thanks sun nu :3
fang : Relinked , [:
wl bestie : So long then tag me uh ? ROAR .
►MinMin оиίί 玟◄ : ;woot ! Eeks me for what ? ;roar ! .
XiaoXing : Alrights , i will . Thanks candyheart .
CHAx3Lyn : Okay , relinked alrdy . [:

Woke up at 5am today . Suddenly just jump from the bed , had a bad nightmare i guess . Though i could still sleep for an hor or so , i just couldn't get back to sleep . So went out to watch teevee . Early morning watch horror movie *shivers* . LOL , then washed up and got ready for school . Almost forgot to bring my laptop along . Luckily i wasn't so muddle-headed , :/

First lesson was Thermofluids . As usual , my mind just switched off after the first hour . Was surfing net on lappy during the rest of the lesson . Too bored alr , msn-ing with my dear Nirija . [: After that was Engineering Materials , sleeping time . LOL . Almost doze off during class , can't stand the lecturer's voice lah . Total sleeping pill . Had Engineering Mathematics lecture after that . Stayed for 4hours for 3 modules lecture in the same room . My pigu pain die lah . D:<

Went for lunch at Foodcourt 3 . The place was so crowded till we've to find a place outside the foodcourt . Then head over for ONOW lecture . Another boring lesson . We're going to BMTC for C.I.P tomorrow *faints* . From 11.30 till 6.30pm . D: Did some evaluation thingy and then briefing on Community Service stuff . Last lesson was Computer programming . Released half an hour earlier . [: Trained with Clique and met Cousin at Newton MRT . Finally i got my pay ! [:

Reached home around 6.30pm . Cooked my own dinner since Mother's out . Went to tag exp for Baby's account again and he leveled . [: Level 21 Amateur now . [: Then continued to audi with Yijie , Jayce they all till Mother returned . Facebook-ed & plurk-ed after that . Plurk's so noisy today , LOL . :x Messaged Baby to ask if he's feeling better . He said he's tired , so i didn't reply back . Rest well dearest Baby . [:

Love is more beautiful than roses .
Love is much deeper than the seas .
Love is stronger than a hurricane .
Love is more precious than anything .
Love is a bond between two hearts .
Love is a symphony of feelings .
Love is sharing two common interests .
Love is finding common ground , when issues not agreed .
Love is giving in , tending all your needs .
Being there always , is all i want to do .
Holding you forever , because our love is so true .

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Yingxue : Alrights , i'll try . thanks chocolover [:
Jingyu ♥ : Thanks Junior <3
MANDY : Okay sweetlover . I'll try [:
Yingxue : Okay , [: Love you too chocolover .
Passerby : Thanks . Btw , you're ?
AhTARD ; Lishi : Okay , will msg you soon [:
CHAx3Lyn : Thanks Chalyn . <3 you too .
♥ALYT : Zuiai ! Hehs , xiexie :D

Hellos bloggers . Cried to sleep last night . In fact , i didn't sleep at all . Was afraid that i'd wake Mother up , went to sit in the living room till morning . That one sentence that he said , made me react this way . Sigh . :'( Shall blog about that later in this post . Went to United Square to get Mom breakfast . Then , was facebooking and msn-ing till Mother left for her language tuition . Went in audi to tag exp for Baby's account . A little more till Amateur , but didn't tag till he leveled since i've to go to school . So stopped at around 60% or so .

Trained to school and met up with WeiQuan and Hanafi . Ate with them at Foodcourt 5 and then walked back to station to meet with Nirija . Had Electrical Technology practical for first lesson . Did experiment on resistors . It was quite alright , repeated few times though . After that was Engineering Materials practical . Didn't do much stuff during the experiment , simple and short . Was still early , so trained back with the others . Felt much better after joking and gossiping around with them , thanks guys . [: Reached home around 6pm . Washed up and then on-ed lappy . Had dinner at home and then blogged .

When you said " I've a girlfriend , but doesn't feel like having one . " My heart just shattered . I don't know how to react to your sentence . My tears just flowed down uncontrollably . Suddenly feeling afraid to lose you . :'( . You said , i'm not always there when you needed me . I know that very well , but i don't have a choice , do i ? All because of my parents keeping me under their restrictions . I wanted so much to be by your side too , don't you even understand ? Then , what's the point of you saying that you need and want me , when you say such things to me ? I really don't want my parents to be the reason we seperate ways... :'( .

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♥} ATXL, Xinling : Hahas , how about you ? [:
Yingxue : Thanks chocolover , love you too . :D
J.Hyorii : Hmmm , i did the editing myself . [:
CHAx3Lyn : Thanks for tagging . Linked also [:
♥ALYT : Thanks for tagging and i will , :D
Jingyu ♥ : Junior ! [:
Miss Chanel : Alrights , linked .
Jiaxuanheroic. : Sure , linked you alrdys . [:
-PACMAN : Hoho , i know you love me , ;shy .
Passerby : Trying to , thanks anyway .
gladys : Sun nu ! ;luv too . [:
AhTARD ; Lishi : Hehs , thanks . Takecare ~